new album august 27th! finally!

Good news everyone!1 I’ve recorded a sufficient amount of demos to produce an album! Yeah! Totally awesome. Here is the info:

1. The album is called JOSH BELVILLE DIES ALONE 

2. Ten songs about love or fucking up at love.

3. The tracklist is going to probably most likely be this!

Talking to You
I Took a Break
Refrigerator
Love Song
Punch Out Love
Solipsizing
PDX, Call Me Home
Oregon Organs
Everybody Knows
Vino

Of those tracks, three have never been recorded before (the others are in lo-fi forms in various places on the internets or on my hard drive, whatever. you’ve probably not heard them).

4. I hope to have some album cover art ready as soon as possible.

5. Release date is August 27th!

6. Singles? Probably not. Unless someone wants to help me make a music video. SONGS FIRST PEOPLE2.

7. The album will be available on Bandcamp. You will be able to stream it for free or purchase it in high quality MP3 or whatever format you want, really, for the low low price of five American dollars. If you download the album, there will be bonus stuff for you! Like liner notes, extra album art, and maybe probably even BONUS TRACKS. Oh boy.

8. If you’ve read this far then you’re interested, I’m assuming, so here’s the demo for “Everybody Knows”! Take a listen! [WARNING: I swear in it. Just once. So ... don't let your kids listen to it. Or something]

So yeah! I will try to upload Ye Olde Blog with more info and photos and videos and stuff like that. I think this album is going to be awesome and I am excited for you all to hear it!

  1. You said that in Professor Farnsworth’s voice and didn’t even realize it.
  2. If I do singles, however, they will probably be Punch Out Love and Everybody Knows. So there.

JOSH’S SUMMER 2013 DANCE MIX!

Holy crap you guys, it’s starting to get hot in the northern hemisphere if you know what I’m sayiiiiiing I’m saying it’s getting warm. But it’s also the end of school for many people (myself included), and that means hot sticky summer days and why am I taking so long to get to the point? I MADE A DANCE MIX! It’s two hours which is plenty of time to peruse a different varieties of grooves for your body to get into. Please download the .zip file and then open it and put the songs directly into your ipod or phone or maybe just on your computer, and then go out and enjoy the summertime and dance like you’ve got a crayfish stuck up your bum! (note: it might be easier to look up the album, rather than the artist. The album is “DANCE DANCE DANCE”)

DOWNLOAD THIS MOTHER RIGHT HERE!

TRACK LISTING
1. Bob Sinclar – I Feel for You
2. The Bucketheads – The Bomb! (Radio edit)
3. Cut Copy – Out There on the Ice
4. Disclosure feat. Jessie Ware – Confess to Me
5. Stardust – Music Sounds Better with You (12″ mix)
6. Matthew Dear – I Can’t Feel
7. Le Tigre – Nanny Nanny Boo Boo (Junior Senior mix)
8. Hot Chip – Night and Day
9. Escort – All Through the Night
10. Fatboy Slim – Brimful of Asha (remix of the Cornershop song)
11. Araabmuzik – Streetz Tonight
12. LCD Soundsystem – Yeah (Crass Version)
13. Justice – DVNO
14. Basement Jaxx – Make Me Sweat
15. Scissor Sisters – Shady Love
16. Hercules & Love Affair – Blind
17. The Rapture – House of Jealous Lovers
18. Britney Spears – (Drop Dead) Beautiful
19. Dimitri from Paris – Indigo Blues (Llorca feat. Nicole Graham)
20. Royksopp – This Must Be It
21. Kylie Minogue – Cupid Boy
22. John Talabot – Destiny (feat Pional)
23. Cassius – The Sound of Violence
24. Daft Punk – Too Long

Progress

In January I decided a change was in order. Desperately needed, really. I continued to feel sluggish and despondent due to three years of sitting at a desk eight hours a day, in a job that I hated, doing mindless, repetitive work. I had cut myself off to part time, and started going to college to get my Masters in Theatre. That was the first big change. But even by the beginning of 2012, I still felt like crap. So I decided to start running. From January to mid-March, I participated in the Couch to 5k program, running every other day from sixty second intervals until thirty minute intervals. It was pretty life changing, I must admit. I’m not very fast, but I kept on running, eventually participating in my first 5k ever, the Shamrock Run here in Portland. My time was 36 minutes (the chip says 38, but it’s 36, for reasons I won’t get into here1). Continue reading

  1. Okay, you want to know? So I had my Runkeeper app on my phone on as I ran. Races like this have mats that you cross, and the third mat (that was the starting line, basically) began your chipped time. So that’s all good. But on the way back, the finish line had three mats too, but everyone kept stopping on the first mat. There was a mass of people, and so long story short I ended up waiting two minutes to get to the actual finish line. Hence, 38 rather than 36.

custom music files for c25k

Oh, hey, there, blog. Nice to see you. Hope you’ve been doing well, as I languish in introspective stagnation. I have something for you today, though. Oh yes. It’s music for running!

I’ve been doing the Couch to 5K program for the past seven weeks, with only two more to go. My progress has been amazing, not to toot my own horn. I went from barely being able to run 60 seconds without clutching my knees like that episode of the Simpsons when Marge joins the police force and Homer tries to run after her1, to being able to run longer than 20 minutes without even getting especially winded. It’s fantastic. I actually started C25K three times. The first time I couldn’t get past week two, the second time I got sick after week three, and this time is the third time, and I suppose it is also the charm.

I’ve been using Robert Ullery’s C25K podcasts to help me run. The first two times I started I was just using my cell phone’s stopwatch feature, which was just really annoying. But Robert’s podcasts have some decent electronica music and he chimes in and lets you know when to start or stop running, which is frequent in the first few weeks, and they became invaluable to my success in keeping track of my running.

But eventually I knew I was going to get to this place: long stretches of running with no intervals. I just finished Week Seven, which was three days of 25 minute runs (bookended with five minute warmup/cooldown walks). I decided this week to use a custom playlist of music, which I figured would give me even more morale to run because it was music that I enjoyed, and music that pumped me up. Turns out it worked really well!

So I am going to post these songs, with tracklists, so if you’re doing C25K and you want some fun music, you can choose to download these. Week Seven’s music is a little off in terms of specific running and stopping times, but Week Eight is pretty spot on.

Without further ado, here we go! [please note that Week Nine's playlist will be next week]

Week Seven (and also Day Three of Week Six!)

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Tracklist:
Warmup Track: Massive Attack – Teardrop
Anamanaguchi – Aurora (Meet Me in the Stars) [going from Teardrop to this really gets me in the mood to run!]
!!! – Heart of Hearts
George & Jonathan – The Next Best Thing
Isaac Quatorze – (Super) Super Horrocious
Le Tigre – Nanny Nanny Boo Boo (Junior Senior remix) [this song is the fucking bomb]
The Pains of Being Pure at Heart – This Love is Fucking Right! [I put this here specifically because I knew it would pump me up for the last three minutes, which is exactly what you need]
Cooldown Track: Gotye – Somebody That I Used to Know [it's quiet, but it's good]
and bonus: Tenacious D – Cock Pushups

Week Eight!

Download

Tracklist:
Warmup Track: Andrew Bird – A Nervous Tic Motion of the Head to the Left
Cassius – The Sound of Violence [if this song doesn't pump you up, you have no heart]
The Rapture – House of Jealous Lovers
Junior Senior – Rhythm Bandits [almost three minutes, and perhaps a time to push a little bit]
Basement Jaxx – Red Alert
The Go! Team – Bottlerocket (Single Version)
Jimmy Eat World – Just Tonight…
Hedwig and the Angry Inch – Angry Inch [I thought it would be funny to use a song about a physical angry inch to remind me that my metaphorical "inch" of running was almost over. so there]
Cooldown Track: Blur – Beetlebum

Week Nine Coming Next Week!

So, I don’t know, maybe you’re interested in running, maybe not, and even if you’re not, these are nice little playlists of music. So … there!

After Week Nine I plan on making various 30 minute playlists. Or perhaps just make actual playlists (rather than podcasts, which these are) just so I have enough music to last an entire 5k, however long that takes me to run. Either way, music is a tremendous motivator in my run, and maybe it can be a motivator in yours, too!

(Also, if you’re reading this and maybe want me to do a full-program C25K podcast, let me know. I’ve been thinking about it!)

  1. Tried to find a clip on YouTube, NO DICE.

late night ramblings

me and aaron kiefer, c. 2002

There was a time, not so long ago, when I enjoyed acting. I’d like to think that I know a bit about myself and the way that I work, and so when I say I enjoyed acting, I mean that there was a point in my life where me — the guy you would see every day — was honest and open about himself. Acting, then, became a great way to inhabit the minds of people I’d never think to inhabit, people who had wildly different thoughts than I did, people who weren’t as honest and open as me, who tried very hard to obfuscate and keep secrets. But me, Josh Belville, just a silly guy with broken glasses and a very general lack of fashion sense, I was here, and I was me. Acting became a way to fuel emotions that I might not necessarily have on a day-to-day basis, to explore some inner workings that I was familiar with, but didn’t spend my life exacerbating, simply because I didn’t have to. There’s a proverb that goes, “Happy is the man who has no story to tell.” That was me. There was no facade, no mask betraying inner feelings. There was just me.

But now, as I’m writing this, and as I spend time delving into the double life of Don Draper (yes I’m watching Mad Men, and yes I’m watching it quickly), it occurs to me that my life has changed. No longer am I the man who is happy to be honest and open about himself and his life. It’s affected my work. Now I wear a mask every day, which I don’t even remove when I’m therapy; most of my time there is spent talking about other people, rarely about myself. So when I get on stage to perform, the words are meaningless — they’re not real, and I’m not real. The two cancel each other out. There’s no need to wear a mask when you’re already wearing one.

I mean, people get in this business for a variety of reasons. Some do it because they just want to be seen, acknowledged, loved by scores of strangers in a dark room. Some people desire the disconnect from themselves, because their personal lives are tumultuous and require distance. And some people, people like me, do it because our regular lives are relatively empty, meaningless, and donning someone else’s persona for a couple of hours a night is just a lot of fun. An added bonus is that we share a human experience for a group of people in a dimly lit theater, who may find themselves transformed by the end of the performance, as much as we were transformed in the beginning.

Performance is about the simultaneous act of giving yourself up for a character, and giving yourself into a character. It is a transformation unseen in any other art form. When Anna Deavere Smith performed her play Fires in the Mirror, she brought that transformation to light, and some people didn’t like it. Say what you will about the play, her contribution to theatre is one of illumination of the act itself. She was herself being characters. The incomplete transformation, the ability to be yourself and be the character. No man is Hamlet, but every actor who has performed Hamlet was Hamlet.

My problem is: I can’t invest in being Hamlet because I’m too busy being somebody else. Someone who is not me. Someone who doesn’t find joy in the world like he used to.

I guess what I’m saying is: I’m unhappy. There. You’re welcome.